ismsarebad

It's one oh six, and gosh darn it- I have not burned off my internet time. It is truly an achievement.

I got my report card yesterday and I can say this- I have a C+ in geometry. Mom and dad were thrilled..
"Amanda! You brought your grade up!"
And I was thinking, gosh.. It's a C. It's ironic- when mom and dad are hard on me, it makes it worse, but when they're not hard on me- I'm hard on myself. I'm hard on myself as it is- but I don't get a break, really. It did help that they were supportive.

My GPA is 3.5. Last year I had 3.8. But, it does get harder as it goes. I'm noticing that. It was impossible to fail preschool- and now it's getting easier to fail. It's hard now, can you imagine how hard high school is going to be? Sure, I'm excited that we are finally getting into high school. But then again, it's going to be harder- or at least that's what people tell me. But then again, I was told that junior high would be hard- and it wasn't. The only problem I've ever had is with math.

Today I woke up and started watching TV. Last night, FUSE had the most AWESOME special on.. It had the starting line in it, something corporate. It was the best thing I have seen on tv for the longest time. I have never been this excited about a single tv special ever! It had Kenny Vasoli [the lead from Starting Line] and he was working on BOATS, which has been released for a while- I guess this was recorded a really long time ago.

I was still blown away. The special was about big 'mainstream' bands [I put that in quotes because the advertisement said that.. They aren't THAT mainstream.] talking about their experiences with labels. It was interesting. And it gave me the hugest urge to travel to NJ, because they have tons of pop punk bands from there, and they have these basement shows- I wish we had that here. It's too boring here.

I have been doing my chores for the past two hours. I stayed on task for that long gosh darn it, I deserve a prize! It took me forever to wash the dishes [of course mom cooks on the days that she doesn't have to clean the kitchen- the kitchen is always the dirtiest on the weekends because mom cooks on the weekends. That's the same reason why I cook on the weekdays.] Then I dusted.. The house was so dusty! I cleaned my room, which also took forever since I've been crafting- and the room gets so messy when I craft. It's a relief to have it clean for once. I always feel better after I clean lol.

Mom and dad went grocery shopping, and we put everything away, they bought tons of fruit. Maybe it has to do with everyone's smoothie frenzy. Anyways- I'm eating a nectarine. I know I'm not supposed to bite off of it because of my braces- but it doesn't hurt me, so I don't care.. XD
.. But it does make my teeth squeak. I don't get it.. lol
[ I hate how it gets all bitter as it gets closer to the core.. Just like me. I'm a desperate poet with a wealthy appeal, sitting in a room about to break a deal. ]

Wow, I wish I got into the Early November earlier [click the link, and listen to "I Want To Hear You Sad"]! I've been hearing about how great they are for years [honestly, I thought that was the name of a movie.] and now they are about to release their fourth full-length.. I've only really gotten into them because they are a respected band- no one ever bashes TEN! lol. And they were put into this category that includes SoCo, I had to check it out.

"I have [I have] you breathing down my neck, I don't [don't know] what you could possibly expect under this condition so.. "

It's two o-clock.. and I just got online. Yes, I cheated and used that "save draft" function, which is extremely helpful. Because, knowing me, those really long entries usually take place after one or two internet sessions. Behind the scenes kind of stuff, eh? Makes me feel like a famous person. A director.. XD

Reading other people's blogs fascinate me. It's a way to get to know someone, and they don't need to return the favor. I like how other people write. It's still depressing, because it's just that my friends don't really use blogs like I do. They update sometimes, while I write here everyday.

This blog, is just a way to make fun of myself. To make fun of my habits, my likes and dislikes, and to complain, generally... XD

I've been thinking more and more lately, about what career I should pursue. I don't want to confuse myself when I think about it so I stick to one thing- cooking. Because when I start thinking about all of the possibilities- it gets me thinking too much. You know how it is- it gets complicated.
"Well, I like this.. But I like this.. What if I end up regretting it?"
Because you know darn well, that I go out of my way so I don't end up regretting something. I'm a worrywart.

My whole sewing thing.. I can't imagine pursuing it as a career, just because it tends to be a hassle. I like it, it keeps me busy, but it is really meant to be a hobby.

.. And then there's my passion for music. I have actually formed intelligent opinions about music, and the people behind it. My synesthesia makes music all the more enjoyable, and just learning about the people behind the music is fascinating. I love lyrics, and heck, I write my own on here.

So then I got to thinking about this: what if, I were to be a chef on the warped tour? There is such a job. I would honestly, love to have that job. I'd be in the kitchen, listening to the music and the people in the venue, and I'd serve the food to the bands and maybe even converse with them. I'd be behind the scenes. Wouldn't that be so exciting? I think it would.

I'm sorry this entry wasn't that exciting for you, but I did learn tons by writing all this stuff out. This is another reason why I write these blogs- it clears my head and I solve problems that I've been pondering. [and anyways, I don't think anyone really reads this for fun. It's just something to read when you're really bored.]